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I’m Back and Better!👌🏾

Hey Loves,

This first sentence has been written so many times and backspaced just as many. I mean how do I honestly start off this post considering I haven’t written one in so long! Actually, that is not all the way true. I have been blogging in my mind for the past 8 or so months; those thoughts have just not made their way out of the chambers in my mind. I guess some have broken free now and it feels good to say I’m back and I’m better! What does that even mean, though? Sounded good when Bryson Tiller’s dulcet tones sang it in ‘Don’t’ but in my world, it means more than I may be able to express right now.

I wanted to take a break from social media. I wanted to take some time for myself, to understand some of the things I was going through. I wanted some of my mental to catch up with my physical change. Yes, I intentionally chose the word wanted! I needed to look after my health, which was telling me I was a priority and not an afterthought. I wanted to look in the mirror and not pick myself apart because what I saw did not match up to what was ‘liked’ in the fickle beauty industry.

You see, no matter how confident we appear we all have inner battles that require us to reset our thinking so we can remind ourselves how AWESOME we are! Awesome AF! Rewiring some of my thinking has pushed me. Challenged me. Trained me. Strengthened me. Life has taken a series of interesting turns and I am grateful to God for seeing me through. Learning, evolving and continuing to focus on being the BEST me I can be… NO LIMITS!

So yes, your girl is back and better! Better in part also to many of you and your fantastic messages and love. Big thanks to those of you who got in touch telling me that you missed the blog. Missed me, and my small contribution in the form of this blog that does its own thing. Thank you for encouraging me and for sharing ways I have inspired you. Those that know me, know that I really love this blog and what it represents. The strange goings on from a chick that loves family, friends, Brooklyn, music, makeup Trey Songz and so much more! I have missed you all and pray that you are good and life is all it needs to be for you right now- especially in these trying times!

I’m gonna end by saying THANK YOU to everyone who voted for me in the Best Makeup Artist 💄 category at last year’s AFRO MODEL AWARDS! I don’t think I will ever get over the shock of winning. It was very soon after that night that I took time out. I put shout-outs on Twitter and Facebook but let me holla on here too. I am so grateful and blessed at the recognition and hope it raises your spirits and reminds you that you can do and be anything you want to. No matter your age or the stage you’re at in life! Your journey is in your hands!

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Wishing you all the love in the universe… see you in the next post!

Besos! 💋

TBH! xoxo

p.s. I know for some there are more questions and things you want to know. Not everything is for the blog and what is will be on the blog in due course!


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A letter to my younger self…(part 1)

Darling Donna-Marie,

There is so much that I want to tell you that I don’t know where to start. I am both anxious and excited at the same time wanting to tell you of what is to come. Somewhat apprehensive about how your 16 year old mind will process some of it. Happy at the thought that most of it will make you smile. Don’t worry, I promise not to spoil or give too much away! It will be like crib notes…giving you the low down, without giving you the answers, I think!

Let me start by telling you how proud I am of you. Pride in the purest form that is making my heart race as I write to you. You have become a strong, independent woman. Smart, funny and cheeky which are characteristics you pass on to someone else who I will tell you a little more about in part 2. That could be anyone so stop trying to guess. Some of this may make you cry and that is ok. Those tears will bring you strength like you’ve never known. Some of it will make you laugh. The moment that make you cringe, imagine how I felt.

We made it to 40. Praise God! 40 years of stuff you couldn’t even imagine at 16. Some of it you did imagine, the rest, well, you didn’t imagine it and that’s probably for the best. I know how impatient you can be at times (that doesn’t change much by the way) so let me give you some quick hits on what I know you’ll wanna hear first! The only spoilers are the ones I know you have to know at 16.

  • Brenda and Dylan don’t make it on 90210
  • You’re still a dork
  • You end up going to more than one prom (and you look super cute)
  • You will eventually be over Puff Daddy (who changes his name a million times) and it will be all about Trey Songz who will follow you on ‘Twitter’
  • You grow into your teeth and your gap doesn’t close
  • You will never rock a jheri curl again.
  • We need to talk about your eyebrows. Don’t listen to anyone who says they are on ‘fleek’.
  • Who told you to wear timbs with everything?
  • You do not stay skinny forever so appreciate your body. Especially your boobs!
  • You will always be a Daddy’s Girl 
  • You will stop wearing black liner and red lipstick… for a while.
  • You will NEVER tire of popping your booty to Miami Bass. You’re always gonna be that girl!
  • Carlene will be taller than you!
  • You will go natural with your hair.
  • Dwane and Whitley from A Different World get married!!!!!!
  • You’re not married…YET!

Ok! Ok! So I know you’re panicking at the thought of the first and the last ones the most because like seriously, how are Brenda and Dylan not together. Cause that in your mind translates to you not ever finding the one… *sigh*. Girl, don’t worry. Your time will come. you have far too much living and learning to do before marriage comes your way. Just keep reading, I will explain.

The rest of your teens…

You still move around a bit and whilst life in Florida is fun and hot you’ll end up finishing out High School in New York! Not before the infamous car accident with Fitz after homecoming. Or spending endless moments with Teresa and Lish or Yajaira and Linda. Stealing (borrowing) Erica’s clothes to look more grown up or having your baby Sis follow you everywhere and secretly love it.

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When you do make it back to the big Apple it will instantly be like you never left and you will love it. In fact some of the closest people to you now are still there. Aunty Annie, your cousins, Boopsie and the whole e.98th crew make New York your city of dreams. Chilling on the stoop with Adrian, Larry, Ty was like nothing else. We used to run that block. Tilden is seriously everything it needs to be for you and more. Your time with Michelle and her family will make you feel so loved. Filling a void that you craved. You will transition so much from the island girl you once were in the big city. It will still be very hard to shake the pain and demons from life in St.Vincent. What you went through at age 11 will haunt you for a long time to come but will eventually share it. I couldn’t protect you but you will be ok. More than ok.  As traumatic as it was you were so very brave and strong.  It was not your fault and you can’t keep blaming yourself. You never have to go back there. Ever!

It will take time to trust people and that is ok. It will take time to confide in people and that is ok too. You will learn to forgive and trust yourself first and then it will all fall into place. Aunty Annie will be the first one to help. Don’t be so hard on her ok? Even when she tries to embarrass you by screaming ‘Donna’ down Church Ave.

You will finally be reunited with your Daddy and Brother in England when you leave New York. You will be sad to leave your family, friends and love behind and you will write lots of letters and make calls. Start saving now cause those international calls will not be cheap! And yes, you will go back again and again and again. Ever since you left the city, you got exactly what you asked for…(kinda) running out of pages in your passport!

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London Calling…

It takes a while for you to adjust to being in the UK. Between you and I, I honestly do not think you ever really do. Sorry but not really sorry. It takes your Daddy some time to adjust to his little girl not being so little. Let’s not even talk about boys. Needless to say when you started talking about bringing boys home to meet him that conversation lasted 3 hours too long. You make him so happy though and he makes you just as happy. Daddy’s girl always.

College life was not the easiest. Some of the girls are nice to your face but behind your back not so nice. They couldn’t understand why you dressed like the boys and why the boys liked you. They will say it is because of your accent. I say it’s because you’re Donna-Marie, DUH! You still have loads of fun and meet some awesome people. Raphael, T-Bone and Mark will be your college homeboys.  You meet Jade, Jessica and Ify who you have so much in common with. Jade especially is like your own guardian angel which I don’t even think she knows. They will help you find your feet in Stanmore and the ends. Oh yes! You thought US slang was something… wait till you get to the UK. Butters! Stooshe! These words will still be giving you night dreams in your 40s.

Ok, so we have to talk about boys. I know we said lets not but we kinda have to. Boys will like you. You will like boys. Boys will stink. Boys will smell like Polo aftershave. Boys will wear baggy pants and jansports and you will act like you have no sense. They will wear jeans with clouds on them! Seriously clouds! You will hate boys. Boys will have American accents but live in the UK and you will think you’re in love. Boys will be sweet. Boys will be jerks. You will break hearts and you will get your heart broken. You will look for love in all the wrong places (that will be your jam). You will find love in the right places but at the wrong time. Boys will become men and they will still stink at times but not as much as when they were boys.

Grown and Sexy…

I do not remember how this became your tag line. Daddy would surely slap you for being so extra. Along with Caramel Angel as your alter ego everything. You do not get to be in a Puffy (one of his many name changes) video. You think you’re sexy because you think your life is one big RnB video. It’s a good thing you weren’t in a video. Music will continue to be your everything as you become a young woman. You don’t miss a soca jam. Blame Raph and Tyrone for that. Oh, and Andrea too. You like to party hard. On sheer adrenalin though! No substances involved, phew. Your over the shoulder pose will be your signature pose. Why? Why? Oh and really with the white ankle boots and that dress. Really? IMG_3801

You will be more responsible. Working , studying and growing. That job at Ikea was like your school of hard knocks. Literally. Your friendships with work colleagues, college buddies and high school friends evolve. Some for the better and some for the worst. You are little Ms. popular.  Involved in everything. It doesn’t always bode well but you are good at learning lessons…sometimes. Luckily you had Tamora! Tam never judged you and always made learning some of those lessons a little easier. Side note: Your tattoos are real and not henna like you tried to tell Daddy. Naomi was your twin. She was everything to you and more. Plus her daughter was yours too. You just did not give birth to her. Your friendship with Ni was like having a Sister and Best friend in one. With everything that came along with it.

You think you’re grown because the numbers of your age increase each year but in some ways you’re still that little girl searching and hoping that you’ll make your Mom proud one day. That is one relationship that you’ll still be working on to this day and beyond. You are grown enough to get a mortgage and your first property. No longer living with Daddy had perks and now you had to be serious about everything. You do it though and you will own more property in the future. Yay! You! I mean Me! Yay, US!!!

Love Yourself…

I remember you always thinking you weren’t good enough. Being 16 (sixteen) is tough I know.  That no one would love you. Why would they. What was there to love? Yourself maybe? Well you don’t really find that out until much later but I promise you there is ALOT to love. Just don’t give up ok? Even when it seems like you can’t face any more. DO NOT GIVE UP! You have your toughest trial to come and there is no one that can fight this battle like you can.

We are only half way through and I am gonna finish up here. I bet your facial expression is like this! Ha! I know you so well. You can’t have the entire cheat sheet! That would be no fun. You can’t have come out too bad…right?

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I love you…always Don-Don, Doughnut, Danger Mouse, Donette (I will stop here)!

Me! (Who is You) only older! XOXO

P.S I will write more soon!

P.P.S This letter is being written on a blog. You will have no idea what that is. Like Twitter and some of the other things I mentioned. I won’t tell you to google it. Just trust me. The world becomes a scary but advanced place… in some respects anyway.

 

 

 

 


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Miss Cat Nails | The heart of nail art💅🏾

Hey Loves,

Miss Cat Nails is known in celebrity circles as a professional nail genius and has worked with everyone from Rita Ora to Ellie Goulding and so many more in between. To me she is one of my closest and dearest friends and it gives me great pleasure to blog about her new venture!

Cat has recently taken the plunge and dipped her perfectly blinged out nails into nail accessories. Everything you need to play ‘art attack’ on your nails from glitter to foil, stickers to pearls, I couldn’t think of a better person to create a ‘party for your nails’ than Miss Cat Nails and her business partner, Maria.

I think what makes this line even more appealing is the fact that you do not have to be a nail professional to use the range. Yes, even a nail novice like me can get creative. You can have endless fun with this range making cute and stunning nail art. Simple to use, durable, fashionable and cost effective are just some of the reasons you need this range in your life!

Miss Cat Nails has been in the nail industry for years and her passion is evident in her brand. She has truly put her entire heart into the products  and it is clear that like the very nails she cares for, she will continue to grow! She is gonna take hold of this industry by the nails! Look out for a more in-depth interview with Cat about how she got started with nails and how she got to where she is today.

I am so very proud of you and Maria, Cat. You both have worked extremely hard and it was truly a proud moment seeing it all come to fruition at your first show, Professional Beauty London* last weekend.

The full range is currently available online at Miss Cat Nails as it all things Miss Cat Nails. Look out for the range at a beauty show near you soon and if you are interested in stocking the range please get in touch with her. All details on her site above.

Disclaimer: Please note that all opinions are my own and this review has in no way been affected by my  friendship or association with Miss Cat Nails. The brand and products are really that awesome!

I will be hosting a giveaway on my YouTube channel which will include some goodies from the Miss Cat Nails range at the end of the month. All details will be posted soon!

*Check back for my Pro Beauty London experience at the end of the week!

Hope you enjoyed this post.

See you soon loves!

Besos 💋

TBH! xoxo

 

 

 

 

 


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#CopMyCloset | Fashion Feature! 👗👠💄

Hey Everyone!

Happy Monday or whatever day of the week you happen to read this post! I’m sure I’ve mentioned in past blogs that I am not a huge fashionista. I tend to follow my own drum when it comes to fashion. Not always trend conscious and that is seriously ok!  I just go with the flow. As I broaden my blog and get a little more personal, I decided to share some of my style with you in this new feature I am calling #CopMyCloset | If you read my last post on my lifestyle change you’ll know I am getting used to this new shape of mine. Still curvy and loving it but working on getting healthier day by day.

Any fashion posts like this will either feature that hashtag or a #GetMyGlam one with details on my makeup look for the outfit I am rocking. Check below for outfit details, you’ll also find out where I wore this look!

#CopMyCloset | The Beauty Holder  #CopMyCloset @TheBeautyHolder #CopMyCloset @TheBeautyHolder

Blazer: Oasis £40 | Top: Pale Pink Crop Top Topshop £7 | Jeans: High Waist Skinny Jeans Matalan £16 | Shoes: Pale Pink Court Shoes Primark £12 (about 5 years old)

Glam details to follow in a separate post!

A huge THANK YOU to my friend Liliana (who celebrated her birthday last week) for organising a great night out with her girlfriends. Perfect excuse to wear this outfit. She pulled off a movie night out for us all at a luxury cinema where you can drink and dine whilst you take in your cinematic pleasure. We saw 50 Shades of Grey, I can’t say there was any pleasure for me with the film but that is a whole other story! Thanks Lils (in the white dress below) and to all the other gorgeously fabulous ladies who were there. We had a blast and that was better than any movie! Shall we take a selfie? 🙈

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Hope you enjoyed this feature! Let me know if you would like to see more posts like this. Tell me about your personal style! What do you clothes tell me about you?

Besos! 💋

TBH! xoxo


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Happy New Me!

Happy Year to you! Happy New Year to your families, friends and indeed everyone, everywhere!

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I have been away for a little bit trying to evaluate some things. This blog included. I felt anxious, fearful and confused about whether or not to continue this blog as I tried to figure out whether or not I really had a voice that people wanted to hear. My mind was full of all the negative energy that eats away at your creativity and self-belief. My sisters in blog and also special friends, Kaye (Beautiful Kayekie) and Amanda (Etta’s Threads) supported and helped me understand what I was feeling. Ultimately their advice along with some prayer and internal dialogue brought me back.

I love BLOGGING. I LOVE MY BLOG! I guess I felt like I was letting you guys down by not blogging as often as I would like. I felt like my content may have become redundant and a little boring for some of you. So I needed to regroup and reevaluate. I am back and feeling better than ever, New Me (blogging me) and New Year!

So what does this new blogging me look like? Well, let’s just say it will include lots of ways for you to interact with me. More make-up, beauty, hair, skin care and so much more. I don’t want to give it all away now but let’s just say you will be hearing a whole lot more from me in 2014 and beyond.

Thank you for sticking around and not giving up on me. Thanks for every comment that you make, every share, every like or every discussion about me or my blog. Thank you for being understanding and more importantly for giving up your time to check out what I have to say.

Special Thank you to Kaye and Amanda. I truly love you guys. You mean more to me than I truly express!

Happy New Yearmay it be filled with the love and laughter that give life extra measure!

Besos!

The Beauty Holder! xoxo

Later: My Blog in Review! 2013 on rewind!

Tomorrow: My favourite products of 2013


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Making Over a Make-up Artist! Eek!

Hey Everyone!

Hope you all are well and wonderful!

Quick post on a makeover I did over the weekend! Making over friends can be tricky. Even more so when your friend is a fellow Make-up Artist. I sometimes wonder who is the most nervous! The nervousness comes not from lack of confidence in skill and ability but rather in bringing out a different side to a person’s beauty through that skill and ability.

My gorgeous friend Pria agreed to be a model for one of my video’s. She has asked me to do her make-up many times before but this is the first time it actually happened. She is an amazing MUA and good friend of mine. In true fashion, the camera died half way through and so we only have some before and after pictures. We wanted to go for some colour on the eyes and a playful bright lip. I chose green as Pria felt it was something that would not fit her- I chose to differ. She has beautiful brown almond shaped eyes.

Pria normally rocks a red lip and defined liner and so we opted for something orange with a red base and a softer liner look.Light coverage foundation with a bright highlight under the eyes.

There is no filter on these pics.

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I love make-up that is fresh and natural. That is really what I am about. Enhancing what is already there which is true beauty!

Products used:

MAC Conceal and Correct Pro Palette in Medium/ WetnWild Shadow Comfort Zone Palette/ MAC Texture eyeshadow/ Revlon orange lipstick / Make up Designory foundation palette 2/ Sleek blush in Coral/ MAC Lasting Sensation lipstick/ NARS Albatross highlighter/ LA Colours eyeliner in Violet/ Inglot Mattyfying Pressed Powder/ MAC Mineralised Skin Finish in Dark/ Jordana Fabuliner in Black / Jordana Mascara

Special thanks to Pria for being such an amazing model. Hopefully we will sort out the technical issues and have a video tutorial coming up soon!

Don’t forget you can now check me out on YouTube! Just search The Beauty Holder or click the following link.

Hope you enjoyed this post!

Besos!

TBH! xoxo