I am kinda forcing myself to write this blog. Forcing myself to return to what I love doing because it is time. Let me explain. When I say forcing myself it is not because I don’t want to write it. I do. I want to show the Devil that he does not have any hold over me and I am strong and all the things I know I am. A little personal huh. There is more to this story.
Let me begin by saying ‘THANK YOU’. I have been a little overwhelmed with the messages from people asking if I am ok. If I am returning to blogging and saying they missed my blog. That truly does mean a lot more than I can say. I went quiet. No new posts, no Facebook page updates, no nothing. My social networking life was quiet. Those of you who reached out to me to check in gave me a boost and from my heart to yours, thank you.
If you are regular to my blog, you will know I have an amazingly cheeky, smart and funny Son. He is also Autistic and begun a transition into puberty at the beginning of the year. This has presented a huge challenge for him and our family as he has struggled with communication which has led to even more challenging behaviour. This has made it more complicated as he is due to begin High School in September and we have been in the process of finding the best placement for him.
I said to a very good friend recently that I felt like a broken record telling them the same thing over and over again and so I just began to withdraw. The struggle for me seems to be that it can make me very low at times and I can not see the positives. Thing is, if I look at him I can see the positives because his smile along with his strength and real push to talk and communicate are positive moves that he is making in a world that finds it hard to understand him. The road ahead is not clear, straight or easy but we are getting ready and so is he.
I also had a very bad experience with a natural hair salon that knocked my confidence for six. Felt like I was being hit at every angle but I was always good at baseball and now I am hitting them balls back out the park.
Forcing yourself out of a comfort zone, rut, self-pity is very much mind over matter at times and if you start small you will be surprised at how far you can go. I know this is not going to work for everyone but I am giving it a try and I am blessed to have some amazing people behind me who support me without giving it a second thought.
So what does this mean? Well, lets just say that little notification to say I have posted a new blog should be ringing a little more often on your phone or PC. You’re likely to see my gap-toothed selfie self (really, DM) all over the place again. That is already in operation, LOL. Recent make-up movements and all that good stuff! Some of the posts were written previously but I didn’t get round to publishing. I will be pushing myself to get back on track and more importantly in control cause the Devil is not gonna win!
I will be updating my Son’s blog, Our Autistic Lives, soon with more about his transition to puberty and more. If you want to learn more about Autism then please check it out.
Thank you for being with me on this ride and patient for my blogs. I may not be as traditional as the usual beauty blogger but hey, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
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